I so suck

Yeah, so it's been quite a while since I've bothered even looking at this blog.

It's not like I've been purposely avoiding it, it's more like I forget about thing VERY easily. My mind is like a sieve and things are constantly dripping out the bottom, kind of like my nose in allergy season.

Anyway, when I last left off did I have 1 grandchild or 2? I'm too lazy to open another screen to read what I wrote last. To update on the grandkid count, I now have 3 Wynter(5), Phoenix(4) and Aria who will soon be 1. I have the trifecta, a brunette, a blonde and a redhead so no more will be needed.

MS is still kicking my ass from time to time and the complications from the Thyroid cancer kick it all the time. I would suggest that everyone buy stock in OsCal as I personally keep them in business.

I'm still married though we've been separated for YEARS. I'm too broke to afford a lawyer and he doesn't seem inclined to want to be single, so for now I guess I'm stuck. Unless I run across a sugardaddy in Wal-Mart and convince him to pay for the divorce.

Life could be worse and at times I'm sure it will be. But we survive.

Tears on my pillow

Why can't I move on? Why do I continue to love someone who just can't be/ isn't there for me?

I'm tired of crying every day because of what could have been.

My life is hard enough with the pain I feel in my heart.

Yeah, yeah

My g-babies at Christmas!




So life is like one of those little bouncy balls that never seem to go where you want them too.

I've been in a real funk lately, not a James Brown Funky, just a funk.

Cattitude

 
 

Sleep..whaaaaa

So I have a real problem with sleep. I just don't get any. I have tried every med. made none of them work. Relaxation techniques....nope. Warm bath...nyahh. I am awake every night till 3-5 before I even get slightly sleepy, I'm so sick of it!

Is there such thing as sleep?

So we've tried the Sonata, didn't work. Now we ae rotating Halcion, Ativan and Alprazolam. None of them get me more than about 4 hours of sleep, the Ativan none.
I've decided sleep is over-rated, though I would dearly love some.
I've been feeling pretty funky for a while now, numbness, tingling and some foot dragging action. I guess I need to call the neuro and see what he says.

My how time has flown

 

So the grandbabies are now 2 and 1 as of September. We took this picture at their party. Phoenix was more interested in the cake ans Wynetr wasn't sure if she was supposed to open things or not. It was a good day though and I'll never forget it. 

Bahhhhh

That's how I feel...bahhhhh! Every part of my body hurts and I'm sick of it.

But anyway.....I saw my babies today and they are both growing so fast! phoenix is almost as big as his sister. And when she says "Phoenix..NO!!" it is so funny, she says it like feenicks.

I can't wait till he starts back at her..lol.

My adorable and very opinionated niece Paige at 6 months old.

Phoenix's first birthday and boy did he love that cake!