Friday, September 25, 2009

I need to apologize

To my one follower and to myself. I truly want to put my thoughts down for posterity, after all think of all the world would miss if I didn't. *sarcasm goes here*

Tonight I'm going to admit several things. First , I'm a liar, a big fat liar. Well, not all the time, just when someone asks me how I'm doing. I always just smile and say "I guess I'm okay, I'm still alive.", but it's a big fat humongous LIE. I learned a long time ago to hide how I'm really feeling when it comes to my health. I don't want to bother people or have my family worry about me so I just smile and keep going even if I feel like lying down and dying. The only person I can't fool is my Mam-maw, she always knows and she always calls me on it, bless her heart.

MS is a painful disease, at least it is for me. And I don't like taking pain meds so I mainly grin and bear it, except when I break down and cry. Tonight is a not a good night. But enough about that for now.

My next admission is I love Craig Ferguson. No matter how bad I feel I can watch his show and it makes me smile, it is also the only show guaranteed to make me laugh out loud. I can't wait to get my hands on his new book, "American on Purpose".

Enough rambling for the night.