Real life vs. on-line life

It amazes me more every day how much I depend on my on-line friends to be there when I need someone to bitch and moan too. When I started getting sick and having so many health issues, it seemed like my real life friends just slowly disappeared. I'll never understand that, it's not like I did anything to them or that anything I had was contagious. I mean DUDE, you can't catch cancer or MS like it's the flu!

I could understand it if I was more of a complainer, but I'm one of those "keep it inside until you explode" kind of girls. Ask me how I am and I'll tell you I'm good, even if my pain level is a 20 on a scale of 1 to 10 or I can't feel my feet. I guess some people just can't handle being friends or a support system for someone who lives with a chronic disease.

So I've made friends with people from all over the world and I know all it takes is a post on a message board or a Facebook update and someone will be there to talk me down or pat me on the head when I need a little encouragement.

So thank you Al gore for inventing the Internet! Without it I would be one lonely girl.

Insomnia can bite my ass

For realz!

I've had trouble sleeping for as long as I can remember. Not that I can remember much thanks to not sleeping enough or even sleeping well when I do finally get that visit from the sandman.

I've decided that a good nights sleep is like a unicorn, a beautiful but imaginary thing that one hopes to one day see. It wouldn't be so bad if I could be productive while I'm awake but because of a lack of sleep my mind tends not to want to stay on topic or even remember the topic a lot of the time.

Like right now, even though I wanted to talk about not sleeping, instead I'm going to talk about how since the Thyroid Cancer my body no longer regulates it calcium, Vit. D. potassium and other levels. And anything and everything throws it out of whack. I've had a cold and took some over the counter stuff so that I could actually breathe. That in turned caused my calcium level to drop and caused my arms, legs and face to go numb. it also makes my eyes twitch, which Drives me crazy!!

So I can either breathe or twitch, the choice is mine! Right now, I'm going to try and get some sleep...hahahahahahahahaha