Feeling blue

I'm feeling sad tonight... well actually I've been feeling sad for a couple of weeks. And the bad thing is that I don't have to feel this way. All it would have taken was a sit down face to face talk with someone I care about and who said they cared about me.  But apparently it's easier to just walk away and not talk, not give a reason, not give someone closure.

I very rarely ask for anything from anyone.. It's just the way I am, I don't want to be a bother but sometimes answers would be nice.  As it is I don't know if it's something I said or did or if the person just thinks it would be harder on THEM to actually be honest with me.  it seems like the cowards way out.

All I want is to watch my friends live the lives they want to live and would never do anything but support them in their dreams so it hurts to be cut out with no explanation. I'm not wired to cut my feelings off and on like a light switch and people who are, are just enigmas to me.

I'll always be here for you because I love you, anytime day or night I'm just a text or phone call away.  I want you to be happy but I want me to be happy too... It may take some time but things will get better, there's no where to go but up.