Real life vs. on-line life

It amazes me more every day how much I depend on my on-line friends to be there when I need someone to bitch and moan too. When I started getting sick and having so many health issues, it seemed like my real life friends just slowly disappeared. I'll never understand that, it's not like I did anything to them or that anything I had was contagious. I mean DUDE, you can't catch cancer or MS like it's the flu!

I could understand it if I was more of a complainer, but I'm one of those "keep it inside until you explode" kind of girls. Ask me how I am and I'll tell you I'm good, even if my pain level is a 20 on a scale of 1 to 10 or I can't feel my feet. I guess some people just can't handle being friends or a support system for someone who lives with a chronic disease.

So I've made friends with people from all over the world and I know all it takes is a post on a message board or a Facebook update and someone will be there to talk me down or pat me on the head when I need a little encouragement.

So thank you Al gore for inventing the Internet! Without it I would be one lonely girl.

Insomnia can bite my ass

For realz!

I've had trouble sleeping for as long as I can remember. Not that I can remember much thanks to not sleeping enough or even sleeping well when I do finally get that visit from the sandman.

I've decided that a good nights sleep is like a unicorn, a beautiful but imaginary thing that one hopes to one day see. It wouldn't be so bad if I could be productive while I'm awake but because of a lack of sleep my mind tends not to want to stay on topic or even remember the topic a lot of the time.

Like right now, even though I wanted to talk about not sleeping, instead I'm going to talk about how since the Thyroid Cancer my body no longer regulates it calcium, Vit. D. potassium and other levels. And anything and everything throws it out of whack. I've had a cold and took some over the counter stuff so that I could actually breathe. That in turned caused my calcium level to drop and caused my arms, legs and face to go numb. it also makes my eyes twitch, which Drives me crazy!!

So I can either breathe or twitch, the choice is mine! Right now, I'm going to try and get some sleep...hahahahahahahahaha

Replacements

My cat Nosey decided about a month and a half ago that 15 years was enough. I had decided to go cat-less for a while, but the quiet in the house was just too much.

So last weekend my mom and I went to visit my aunt and I came home with not one, but two new fur babies. One male, one female, both wild as bucks!



Meet Bubba and Daisy, the newest members of the Voo family. They are approximately 3 months, give or take a week or two. The house is no longer quiet and my stress levels have lowered, both good things.

I'll never have to pee alone again!

Books a Billion

In case I haven't mentioned it, I'm a reader. I can read a book or more a day, depending on my mood and the book. I prefer to read fiction though I do delve into some non-fiction ever so often. I'm also partial to supernatural and fantasy books right now.

I almost always have several books going at once and it's becoming a pain to decide what to read next. at this moment I'm reading "The Unnatural Inquirer" by Simon R. Green, I love his books! I'm also readind "Charmed & Deadly" by Candace Havens and "Deathstalkers Honor" also by Simon R. Green. There is another one, but it's in my purse and I'm too lazy to get up and see what it is.

If you haven't ever read any of Janet Evanovich's Plum series then I highly recommend them. They are very entertaining and always make me laugh out loud.

I need to apologize

To my one follower and to myself. I truly want to put my thoughts down for posterity, after all think of all the world would miss if I didn't. *sarcasm goes here*

Tonight I'm going to admit several things. First , I'm a liar, a big fat liar. Well, not all the time, just when someone asks me how I'm doing. I always just smile and say "I guess I'm okay, I'm still alive.", but it's a big fat humongous LIE. I learned a long time ago to hide how I'm really feeling when it comes to my health. I don't want to bother people or have my family worry about me so I just smile and keep going even if I feel like lying down and dying. The only person I can't fool is my Mam-maw, she always knows and she always calls me on it, bless her heart.

MS is a painful disease, at least it is for me. And I don't like taking pain meds so I mainly grin and bear it, except when I break down and cry. Tonight is a not a good night. But enough about that for now.

My next admission is I love Craig Ferguson. No matter how bad I feel I can watch his show and it makes me smile, it is also the only show guaranteed to make me laugh out loud. I can't wait to get my hands on his new book, "American on Purpose".

Enough rambling for the night.

Books, books and more books

So It' almost 3 a.m. and I'm still awake. What's on my mind at this time of night you may ask?

The huge bunch of books I have stored throughout my house. I have shelves, I have piles, I have boxes and hidey holes. All full of books, both read and unread. I fear that someday they will find my poor dessicated body covered by a collapsed pile of books, bookmark clenched between my teeth.

I must state for the record that I am not a book hoarder, I do try to find them all new homes as soon as I finish reading them. I have been a member of PaperbackSwap.com for many years and send out several almost every week. And yet there are book on my shelf that have just sat there for years with no one wanting them. So I have added BookMooch to my addiction. And now I have already been able to find homes for several of those books no one seemed to want.

So slowly the piles will diminish, at least until the batch I ordered shows up.

I so suck

Yeah, so it's been quite a while since I've bothered even looking at this blog.

It's not like I've been purposely avoiding it, it's more like I forget about thing VERY easily. My mind is like a sieve and things are constantly dripping out the bottom, kind of like my nose in allergy season.

Anyway, when I last left off did I have 1 grandchild or 2? I'm too lazy to open another screen to read what I wrote last. To update on the grandkid count, I now have 3 Wynter(5), Phoenix(4) and Aria who will soon be 1. I have the trifecta, a brunette, a blonde and a redhead so no more will be needed.

MS is still kicking my ass from time to time and the complications from the Thyroid cancer kick it all the time. I would suggest that everyone buy stock in OsCal as I personally keep them in business.

I'm still married though we've been separated for YEARS. I'm too broke to afford a lawyer and he doesn't seem inclined to want to be single, so for now I guess I'm stuck. Unless I run across a sugardaddy in Wal-Mart and convince him to pay for the divorce.

Life could be worse and at times I'm sure it will be. But we survive.